“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt is indeed out of the basic feeling-tone that brought about his malady. The feeling-tone however also helped to bring about our sessions as well, even though he did not become ill in your terms until afterward.

The creative liberation in his own work (since Seth’s book has been finished Jane has started two books of her own) is a clear symptom on the positive side of the change in feeling-tone, as was the more expansive idea of adding to your establishment. (Renting the second apartment, across the hall from the original one.)

It is the feeling-tone even more than the thoughts that dictate overall activity. The feeling-tone will of itself alter the nature of the thoughts. (Leaning forward for emphasis.) The feeling, rather than the thought of confidence, is what he needs now, and his alpha experiences are leading him in that direction.

The feeling-tone of Ruburt’s mentioned earlier in your terms, the negative one, was triggered as you know by his reaction to your illness, which was followed by rising difficulties on the part of your own parents. He felt trapped by them, having to help them, as he felt trapped by his own mother.

He felt then that the tables had been turned on him again, after a time of freedom. Learning to handle these problems took him time, and again the problems themselves helped generate enough activity within his psychic centers to open up new channels.

When he felt trapped he adopted those symptoms, though to a much lesser degree, that his mother had when she was trapped. His childhood situation filled him with terror, yet there was the impetus of growing up to set him free. This time he found himself in adulthood with no such “escape” in quotes offered or possible in the old terms.

All in all he surprised himself by his performance with your parents. Such a performance would have been impossible for him early in your marriage. He simply would have run away, as he wanted to run away this time.

These are obviously not the only issues involved. They were simply trigger points. At the same time he had not found himself yet where he wanted to go with his own career. He never thought of himself beyond the age of 30. In his dreams by then he would be a well-known writer, and that was the glorious end of the tale.

There were then physical side-effects. He was used to dealing with parents as enemies. Your own position as partially in league with those enemies, to his way of thinking, confused him further. His loyalty to you would make him by turns deny any backed-up feelings toward your parents, and then he would be forced to recognize them, and in doing so he would become angry at you for having parents.

It was the religious connection at your father’s funeral that upset him. His reactions were based upon the past and had to be brought up into the present, and worked through, and this largely has been done. Your mother, for example, is quite aware that Ruburt has in his own way grown to cherish her.

It was, however, like a second, more painful adolescence. He felt always on shifting ground, and could not get his footing—hence the rigidity.

(Her father, Del, had died on November 16, at 7:30 AM, in Daytona Beach, Florida. Midge, Del’s wife, called Jane later that morning, and Jane in turn called me at work. There isn’t anything we can do, particularly, beyond the few letters Jane wrote. During break I explained to Jane that she might like Seth to say something about Del; by this I meant his experiences after death. I thought his death might give Jane a chance to “follow along” with a personality no longer physical in our terms. Resume at 10:20. )

Ruburt’s father is with his mother from this life. She waited for him before reincarnating. They were closely involved in other relationships in past lives.

On another level she encouraged Ruburt in his own development. As Ruburt knows she was a Christian Scientist and a reader. Both grandmothers, while seeming so different, were more than usually concerned with the nature of the soul, and their idea of what religion was.

In developing his own abilities and searching for answers through these sessions, Ruburt also unconsciously sought, and seeks, finds answers for his mother, since she was unable to find them, and answers for his grandfather Burdo as well. (“Little Daddy,” as Jane called him.)

Ruburt’s father was very bound to his mother. The energy went out of him with her passing. He had no intention of living to a ripe old age. (Del died at 66, very suddenly, of a cerebral hemorrhage.) He was very uneasy about Ruburt, until Ruburt met you, and he then turned Ruburt over to you.

He wanted to join both Mattie and Dorothy. (Dorothy, Mattie’s sister, died a year or so ago at a very advanced age.) His emotional direction however was always with his mother. He had been a woman, and Mattie a man. Mattie had owned him. For a good deal of this life, while loving her, he depended upon her for handouts, and refused to set himself up independently to point out the old relationship when he was forbidden independence.

This time his dependence was a source of hurt to her.

He did not use his abilities fully to spite her, while loving her. This was the reason for the repressed aggression. He was basically childlike, trusting not people however but nature. They are having a reunion in depth.

He has met his former wife (Maxine, who died about 14 years ago, just as Jane and I met), but the connections are not good. The mutual attraction no longer exists as it did between them. The reunion is joyous and his vision is clear at last in terms of his own selfhood.

You may be aware of him without his necessarily appearing. He will look in on Midge, however. He remembers her with gratitude; but there is a possibility of an unpleasant death on her part, that could involve fire. (Pause.) If so, he will see to it that she does not suffer.