“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

—and welcome back. And tell our friend that I said welcome back to him also.

The feeling-tone, somewhat generated in childhood as I told you, was momentarily changed for the better when your relationship with him began. The feeling-tone however was one of the issues that led him to seek so for answers, and also made it very difficult for him to accept them.

It is the feeling-tone even more than the thoughts that dictate overall activity. The feeling-tone will of itself alter the nature of the thoughts. (Leaning forward for emphasis.) The feeling, rather than the thought of confidence, is what he needs now, and his alpha experiences are leading him in that direction.

He felt then that the tables had been turned on him again, after a time of freedom. Learning to handle these problems took him time, and again the problems themselves helped generate enough activity within his psychic centers to open up new channels.

When he felt trapped he adopted those symptoms, though to a much lesser degree, that his mother had when she was trapped. His childhood situation filled him with terror, yet there was the impetus of growing up to set him free. This time he found himself in adulthood with no such “escape” in quotes offered or possible in the old terms.

All in all he surprised himself by his performance with your parents. Such a performance would have been impossible for him early in your marriage. He simply would have run away, as he wanted to run away this time.

There were then physical side-effects. He was used to dealing with parents as enemies. Your own position as partially in league with those enemies, to his way of thinking, confused him further. His loyalty to you would make him by turns deny any backed-up feelings toward your parents, and then he would be forced to recognize them, and in doing so he would become angry at you for having parents.

It was the religious connection at your father’s funeral that upset him. His reactions were based upon the past and had to be brought up into the present, and worked through, and this largely has been done. Your mother, for example, is quite aware that Ruburt has in his own way grown to cherish her.

Ruburt’s father is with his mother from this life. She waited for him before reincarnating. They were closely involved in other relationships in past lives.

In developing his own abilities and searching for answers through these sessions, Ruburt also unconsciously sought, and seeks, finds answers for his mother, since she was unable to find them, and answers for his grandfather Burdo as well. (“Little Daddy,” as Jane called him.)

Ruburt’s father was very bound to his mother. The energy went out of him with her passing. He had no intention of living to a ripe old age. (Del died at 66, very suddenly, of a cerebral hemorrhage.) He was very uneasy about Ruburt, until Ruburt met you, and he then turned Ruburt over to you.

He wanted to join both Mattie and Dorothy. (Dorothy, Mattie’s sister, died a year or so ago at a very advanced age.) His emotional direction however was always with his mother. He had been a woman, and Mattie a man. Mattie had owned him. For a good deal of this life, while loving her, he depended upon her for handouts, and refused to set himself up independently to point out the old relationship when he was forbidden independence.

You may be aware of him without his necessarily appearing. He will look in on Midge, however. He remembers her with gratitude; but there is a possibility of an unpleasant death on her part, that could involve fire. (Pause.) If so, he will see to it that she does not suffer.