“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

From your work with the pendulum you understand some points. The affair began however when you first realized that your father would be no longer operative. He had not lived up to your mother’s plans for him, and would now obviously not do so.

She thinks it far more laudable that you work in an art department with steady wages, and you know this. (Like Artistic Card Company.

It also serves by giving you another message—that you do want to leave, and that your desire to do so has been affecting your work. If you had to stay, and if you will not be given as much money as you think you should receive, then you will see to it that the work will suffer. This is resentment.

Now I am giving you, presently, the picture as seen by your subconscious. The small but frequent breaks in the fine lines represent those times when the resentments break through. The resentment, carried far enough, could affect your work to such a degree that it forced you to leave, which is exactly what one portion of you wants—and that portion does not care how this is done, though it does not want your painting affected.

Other portions are afraid to leave because of the feelings concerning your mother, mentioned earlier. You are also afraid however, to some extent and under certain conditions, of working, even painting, entirely at home because your father worked at home and did not do well.

At work you mar your performance. You did not want to perform well because you are resentful. Then you were resentful over the resentment whenever you became closely aware of it.

Because he left, and because you knew his hands shook also. At times he wanted to throw his work across the floor.

You will get further information through the pendulum, and you may try automatic writing. I will help you in any case. It is important for some of this that you work it out through your own system—part of you communicating with another part—

My fond wishes—and you will succeed in working it out.