“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now I am giving you, presently, the picture as seen by your subconscious. The small but frequent breaks in the fine lines represent those times when the resentments break through. The resentment, carried far enough, could affect your work to such a degree that it forced you to leave, which is exactly what one portion of you wants—and that portion does not care how this is done, though it does not want your painting affected.

The episode also has some connections, again with your father, in that you feel sometimes, and subconsciously, that you will be old and trembly and still at the job. The departure of your friend serves to bring this up to your mind.

You need to take a reevaluation of your situation, and to act upon what you learn. This may or may not mean leaving the job, but it will mean a new awareness of all the issues involved, and your attitudes. Take your subconscious attitudes seriously. Consider them.