“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now I am giving you, presently, the picture as seen by your subconscious. The small but frequent breaks in the fine lines represent those times when the resentments break through. The resentment, carried far enough, could affect your work to such a degree that it forced you to leave, which is exactly what one portion of you wants—and that portion does not care how this is done, though it does not want your painting affected.

Other portions are afraid to leave because of the feelings concerning your mother, mentioned earlier. You are also afraid however, to some extent and under certain conditions, of working, even painting, entirely at home because your father worked at home and did not do well.

You were more affected by your friend’s (Curtis Kent) departure than you realize, wondering if you yourself should find a better-paying commercial job, and yet angry that you even had such thoughts when what you really wanted was to stay home and paint.