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You have ambiguous feelings about Ruburt’s garden for this reason. You are pleased with his obvious productivity with plants, outside. You remember how strict your father was however, and methodical, in gardening. This annoyed you greatly, but now to some extent you identify with those leanings, and look down upon the garden when Ruburt does not find his way to follow the gardening rules.

Some of these feelings have indeed led you to a strongly charged attitude in some (underlined) cases, a bit out of proportion. (Humorously.) This is not to say that one of you is completely right and the other completely wrong, but I will tell you this: you can count upon Ruburt to recognize immediately and intuitively cases of such overly charged behavior on your part.

There is simply a deep difference. Ruburt for example will enjoy and make use of whatever land he has, be it only the dirt in a window-sill plot. He does not have ambiguous feelings to supercharge his reactions in this particular area. To you this apartment house and its grounds are considered in terms of land, and dwelling. You think of the land you do not have. You have not been able to take advantage of the yard or the ground available as positive things of joy and refreshment, and have therefore been denied an extra advantage from this place, and the conditions that Ruburt has enjoyed.

Give me a moment. A long moment. (To me:) You are largely the one to be satisfied, for Ruburt will find joy in almost any environment that he considers his own; you see he personifies in a way that you do not; any place he is in is his place, to his mind, as this is his yard. So any dwelling that you find he will personify and make his own, and therefore your own, if you follow me.

It upsets Ruburt when you talk of moving, but make no actions to do so, because subconsciously it reminds him of the deep uncertainty and insecurity he felt when he was in the orphanage. Never knowing when he would go home or not, he kept himself in a constant state of readiness to leave. Various dates were given and then his leaving was postponed several times.

Ruburt’s ideas about a house for example are actually far more positive than your own. He automatically believes that your income would rise to meet the new demands, and he is quite correct, as long as you believe it fully. He also thinks in terms of making such a venture pay, however, of ventures financially rewarding and enjoyable, while yours are negative in this regard.

All right. Ruburt automatically thinks of the productivity of land, when he thinks of land. He would do very well in the future in buying real estate—and there will be money to buy it. He would not do as well with stocks and bonds. They are meaningless to him.