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You have ambiguous feelings about Ruburt’s garden for this reason. You are pleased with his obvious productivity with plants, outside. You remember how strict your father was however, and methodical, in gardening. This annoyed you greatly, but now to some extent you identify with those leanings, and look down upon the garden when Ruburt does not find his way to follow the gardening rules.

There is simply a deep difference. Ruburt for example will enjoy and make use of whatever land he has, be it only the dirt in a window-sill plot. He does not have ambiguous feelings to supercharge his reactions in this particular area. To you this apartment house and its grounds are considered in terms of land, and dwelling. You think of the land you do not have. You have not been able to take advantage of the yard or the ground available as positive things of joy and refreshment, and have therefore been denied an extra advantage from this place, and the conditions that Ruburt has enjoyed.

He thinks of this place in terms of a dwelling rather than as land, but because his attitude is not charged and because he does love land, he is able to enjoy what land there is. Now he compares this place for example to his childhood home, as subconsciously you compare it to yours, whether you know it or not. He comes out far above in comparison. You do not, and this angers you.

Give me a moment. A long moment. (To me:) You are largely the one to be satisfied, for Ruburt will find joy in almost any environment that he considers his own; you see he personifies in a way that you do not; any place he is in is his place, to his mind, as this is his yard. So any dwelling that you find he will personify and make his own, and therefore your own, if you follow me.

It upsets Ruburt when you talk of moving, but make no actions to do so, because subconsciously it reminds him of the deep uncertainty and insecurity he felt when he was in the orphanage. Never knowing when he would go home or not, he kept himself in a constant state of readiness to leave. Various dates were given and then his leaving was postponed several times.

Tangibles are important to him. I am simply trying to explain attitudes. Money in the bank does not emotionally excite him, though he realizes its benefits. It does not bring about his creative nature. Now real estate would, and he could double his investments easily, for he has a good idea of people in relation to dwellings, and of population movement. He is not aware of this.