“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your own symptoms have been caused also by an inner indecision, a refusal to come to terms with yourself and your work.

There was also an implied threat involved. You were trying to force yourself and yet punish yourself. Your mother was in the background here. You were trying to punish yourself for not making more money as an artist, since you still felt her old demands.

At the same time you threatened yourself with the possibility of complete failure as an artist, almost in retaliation. (Pause, one of many through here.) You would not (underlined) be a full time commercial artist, regardless of any old demands, though you felt still somewhat guilty at your refusal.

Within your allotted time schedule try to give yourself more freedom. Again, also speaking before thinking. Do not be afraid of making errors in your paintings, but trust your inner self. This will also help your hand. (Pause.)

Your painting technique is excellent. Further important developments here will be intuitive flashes as to how the technique may be used. Trust yourself to plunge fully into large endeavors in your work, and do not be afraid of making errors.

Now and again, do not overemphasize this next exercise, for the condition with the penis is after all but a symptom. Imagine it limp and soft, and then hard and straight, you see. The overall concentrations should not be on ridding yourself of any particular symptom, but on directing yourself properly toward your goals, for this direction and proper focusing will automatically result in the disappearance of symptoms.