“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You are both at such a point now. You had both gone astray, and you are making necessary corrections. A complete overhaul was necessary of your attitudes, emotions and goals.

I am trying to tell you that you have concentrated as strongly at times in a negative manner on success symbols (pause), as others might in a positive manner to acquire them. In either case the focus upon success symbols was there. I do not believe you were aware of this. Instead of course the concentration should be upon fulfilling your abilities, all of them, and financial success will come.

Now. Ruburt was simply kicking up a fuss last night (with Jane’s back cramps). Physically, he had begun to use muscles in a more normal manner, and to activate some muscles that he had hardly used for some time.

On a physical level only, there were then some strains and tensions, fairly normal under the circumstances. On deeper levels however there was conflict, and normal enough rebellion considering the situation. (Pause.) The part of the self who considered the symptoms necessary, you see, has realized they are no longer necessary, but still some habit persists.

It was a rather frightening experience, but without it or without something very much like it, complete recovery could not occur.

There are still some lingerings of mourning, for the grouping was indeed vital, and adopted initially to help the personality. The grouping was doomed to failure, in that it could not succeed in helping the personality, you see, but hindered it.

When it realized this, then all nourishment was cut off. Not only did other elements of the personality begin to deny it energy, but it—this grouping —also committed suicide, so to speak, sacrificing itself for the whole personality which it tried to serve.

(10:28. Jane had delivered the above dialogue with her eyes wide open and very dark. She had been farther out, she said. Now she felt “real weird,” she said, understanding, sad, yet glad also. The feeling was like the feeling she had experienced last night when she had cried out because of the back cramps, she said.

(10:54. Jane was fairly well dissociated, etc. We learned about the death of Otto’s daughter Mary, on a conscious level, this week when we bought a recent book by Otto on flying saucers, and read the dedication. The book was published in March 1967. In the “old days” I drew many a comic-book story by Otto.)