“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It may seem to you (Jane pointed to me) that this would not be the case, and that the caution is unnecessary. A part of you, however, does strongly resent the material benefits that you did derive from your early commercial work. There is a bitterness picked up from your family, working here. It is so well hidden that it has gone almost unrecognized. This is apart from your conflicting ideas concerning success, but colors them.

At times it masquerades as a distaste for material possessions, but often it is simply also resentment. In secret parts of yourself this does cause some considerable bitterness that works to your disadvantage. (Long pause.) You have been afraid of success for the reasons stated, yet resentful that you did not have the material acquisitions that go with it. (Pause.)

This resulted in an active resentment against such symbols, which actually prevented you from acquiring them. Although at times you would consciously want them, the hidden bitterness intruded. You know, I am sure, that if you are successful as a person and as an artist, then financial success will follow.

An unfortunate grouping of habits operating through the body are breaking up. Originally they had a purpose. It now no longer exists, but they still resent the breaking up; and Ruburt’s yells, quite involuntary, represented in fact the death throes of the symptoms, and the part of the self who had accepted them as an attempt to solve problems.