“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Intellectually you are certain enough of your worth as a person, but emotionally not nearly as certain as far as other abilities are concerned. You wanted support. You wanted confirmation of your hopes and of your faith in yourself, but because of your fears these clouded the reality that you perceived.

I am saying then that some of your interpretations of the relationship were based on what you would call factual reality, but part was also based on your own insecurity.

Now, I am going to take a break while my friend (Rob) reads back what I have said, and then I will return. There is hope for both of you yet, singly, and/or together. You will have to face yourselves individually no matter what you do, and you will have to do this before you can see each other with any clearness.

(To Sue:) Now these attitudes have a false premise, and knowing the premise is false will give you much more freedom. With what you know now you should realize that in each life you have different abilities. You may express yourself through a different sexual nature, and you should realize that both are necessary. The idea against which you rebel is a very temporary social premise that is already beginning to disappear. So you need not fight that battle all of your life.

You have not felt that you succeeded at anything. You have not felt that you manipulated well in physical reality, in the world as it is, and to some extent you hated both the world and yourself for this. So you think that the world does not want you to succeed, and that the world, or the establishment, is out to get you. Instead you are afraid that regardless of their opinion, you cannot (underlined) succeed at all in the world as it is.

Your father cut out his own world, you felt, in his house and in the wilderness, comparatively speaking, but at the same time because you feared him so you did not really feel he wanted you to do the same no matter what he said—because to prove yourself a better man would automatically destroy him.

You project your feelings upon the world and take it for granted that the world is what your feelings say it is. You accept your own attitudes toward yourself at their face value. They are attitudes of long standing. They were formed before you had any ability to reflect upon them, and now you have your relative dislike of reading, distrust of verbal expression, for example. You think of yourself as someone who tries to deal directly with the world through experience.

The child can develop excellent abilities, and if your own relationship becomes a constructive one then he will more than learn from your experience. You both have characteristics that are highly advantageous to him. Reincarnational material I will give you another time. He is of such a nature that I believe he will be quite safe regardless of what you do.