“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You were aggressively aware of the difference between your own attitude and some of society’s in that regard, but for the first time in your life you were closely involved with another person, day by day—who to some extent (underlined) then served as a moving picture onto which you projected these fears as to your own worth.

(11:03. Jane’s trance had been deep, she said. Her pace had been fast as she spoke for Seth; I had to ask her to slow down at times. I read the material aloud as suggested. Resume at 11:11.

(To Sue:) Now. You have felt for a long time that you were between the devil and the deep blue sea. That you had a mind and a womb, and that somehow the two did not go together. Regardless of past-life influences, which did exist, and granting some other interior reasons, you had a child to prove that you were a woman both to your mother and to yourself.

Many subsidiary issues fall into place there—the attempt at time to follow along the lines of sports, to cooperate, to hide the womanly nature of which you are basically ashamed. (The last phrase to Sue.

Now give us time here. (Pause.)

Your father cut out his own world, you felt, in his house and in the wilderness, comparatively speaking, but at the same time because you feared him so you did not really feel he wanted you to do the same no matter what he said—because to prove yourself a better man would automatically destroy him.

In your inner journeys you have traveled as far away from yourself as you could get, not as far inward as you could go. To some extent because of this you distrust your wife when she analyzes emotion or when she says to you why do you feel thus and thus a way. You do not want to know a good deal of the time.

The child can develop excellent abilities, and if your own relationship becomes a constructive one then he will more than learn from your experience. You both have characteristics that are highly advantageous to him. Reincarnational material I will give you another time. He is of such a nature that I believe he will be quite safe regardless of what you do.

Now. You have had quite a bit for one night, but each of you can creatively use these problems, and turn them to your advantage, and this is a learning process in which you are both involved. It is not always an easy matter of saying no, and I do see both of you handling your situations well. Do not feel hopeless, and do not feel that you are failures. This is a point of time for you that in other ways has already passed, that you will look back upon. You are not caught in the moment. Request information therefore from your inner selves, and release your perceptions so that you clearly perceive the answers that you receive. You do have the abilities to solve these issues. Remind yourselves therefore of that fact, and do not tell yourselves that your situation in any case is a hopeless one.