“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Intellectually you are certain enough of your worth as a person, but emotionally not nearly as certain as far as other abilities are concerned. You wanted support. You wanted confirmation of your hopes and of your faith in yourself, but because of your fears these clouded the reality that you perceived.

(Humorously:) I am not done with you yet, but I do not want him (Carl) to feel left out over here, and while you are recovering I will speak to him: for you were also in your own isolated universe, and if hers had fears in it, then yours was a valley of desolation in which your emotions were like unruly animals galloping around in there; and you were so frightened and worried about your own worth that you could not consider hers, and you were so insecure that her sensing insecurity, when you were aware of it, drove you to anger.

There was a certain quality in him that held a hidden cruelty, of which you were frightened. Emotionally you also went out to your mother, but you felt that she was dependent upon him, and weaker, and so to some extent you were afraid of your own feelings toward her.

(To Carl:) Now. You feel your emotions. You seldom reflect upon them. You know many of your attitudes. You seldom look for the reasons behind the attitudes. You accept your attitudes at their face value.

In your inner journeys you have traveled as far away from yourself as you could get, not as far inward as you could go. To some extent because of this you distrust your wife when she analyzes emotion or when she says to you why do you feel thus and thus a way. You do not want to know a good deal of the time.

Now the challenges you both have can indeed be met within the framework of marriage, and can perhaps be best worked out in that fashion. They can also be worked out separately. If you decide to continue, the entire atmosphere must change. She must be encouraged to express her emotions and her abilities.

(To Carl:) You must learn to reflect upon your own emotional states, to ride the emotions like a rider upon a horse rather than the other way around—and to show gentleness, to reflect more upon your own attitudes. Your image is one that is very weak, and this you must change; for the image, again, is built upon false premises—and I will give each of you more specific particulars whenever you want them.