“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Session for Sue and Carl Watkins; April 25, 1971, 10:45 PM.

First of all, you have both been living in your own isolated universes, and this applies to my friend over here with the bare feet on the couch. (Sue.

(To Sue:) Now you have been projecting your fears about yourself outward, so that all of your husband’s remarks were interpreted in that light. This aggravated some of his own original conceptions. Some of your interpretations were legitimate, based upon his attitudes, but many more were the innermost doubts that you have not faced as to who you were, and deep questions involving the nature of your person as it is related to your particular sex in this life.

There were, shall I say, errors on both parts. (To Sue:) You tried to relate more strongly. Your fears did not hold you back with the unreasoning strength that his held him back.

(To Sue:) Now. You have felt for a long time that you were between the devil and the deep blue sea. That you had a mind and a womb, and that somehow the two did not go together. Regardless of past-life influences, which did exist, and granting some other interior reasons, you had a child to prove that you were a woman both to your mother and to yourself.

Many subsidiary issues fall into place there—the attempt at time to follow along the lines of sports, to cooperate, to hide the womanly nature of which you are basically ashamed. (The last phrase to Sue.

(To Sue:) Now these attitudes have a false premise, and knowing the premise is false will give you much more freedom. With what you know now you should realize that in each life you have different abilities. You may express yourself through a different sexual nature, and you should realize that both are necessary. The idea against which you rebel is a very temporary social premise that is already beginning to disappear. So you need not fight that battle all of your life.

([Sue:] “I asked for solutions to this in the dream state, and got a lot of World War II stuff. Were these symbols?”)

(To Sue:) This lack of confidence in himself has been picked up by you, and you accepted it. You should have been able to help fight it—put down here that I smiled, and add—ideally speaking.

Being with your parents brought things to a head, because both of your attitudes were aggravated by the environment; you (Sue) relating more as a young girl in the family homestead, and he reacting as the stranger who came in the back door.

([Sue:] “Where is Sean in all of this?”)

([Sue:] “No.”