“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Michael had been an exceptionally warm, sensitive and brilliant child. He had begun to speak at but a few months age. He had been good at numbers, and along with Dave interested in astronomy. He died at 3 years, 4 months. He was born on a Thursday, June 10 at 6:08, and died on a Thursday in October, 1968 at 6:08, almost 4 years to the day from conception. Dave and Estelle were curious about the play of similar numbers here, among other things—since these notes touch upon but a small part of the information given Jane and me through the evening.

The boy was briefly with you for his own reasons. He was to enlighten you, and so he did. He was of an ancient entity, and you have known him in other lives. He wanted his mother to look inward. He was at one time, he was at one time his father’s uncle.

He did not mean to stay within physical reality. He only came to show you what was possible, and to bring the both of you to an understanding of inner reality. He chose his illness, it was not thrust upon him. He did not want to be of the earth. He was done with it, and he only returned so that both of you could learn the truths and inner realities that you are now seeking.

He did not manufacture sufficient blood, for he did not want to be physical beyond the time that he had allotted himself. He was a light, and a light to you, and the light was not extinguished. The light will lead you into knowledge that you would not have known otherwise, nor would you have sought it as vigorously.

He was well aware of this. He wanted you to begin the pilgrimage that you were beginning, but the pilgrimage is within yourselves.

He was indeed involved in scientific endeavors, both in Atlantis and in Egypt, but he had no desire to continue those pursuits in this present existence. He had gone quite beyond them. As his uncle, the father was also involved with him in two past lives in the same relationship, and as priests they were also interested in the inner workings of the universe.

The father however had a particularly unpleasant life in 14th Century France, and (to Dave) if you will refuse what you had learned in the past, he could not force you to remember. But he could give you a nudge and a push, gently, and in this existence he did so.

(To Dave:) You always have control. You are the one who is always in control, and you knew before you and your wife met, subconsciously, the circumstances that had gone before, and the reason for your meeting, and your son knew. He went before you as he has gone before you in the past.

It is not the time for you to run willy-nilly, looking for truth in any treetop—the truth is inside your own skull, and you at least know how to find it; but discipline and intuition is involved. Your son is not a three-year-old any longer. He is an entity older than you, and he has tried to point the way to you.

The child knew well what he was doing, and subconsciously you also knew. He is not an infant to be pitied, nor a child taken from you before his promise was achieved. He was a personality who left you when his own reincarnations were finished. (In here I missed a few words because of Seth’s faster pace. Copy added after receipt of Craigs’ copy on November 22, 1968. See also page 141.) He returned to help you and show you the way. He is at present resting. He will not return, but go to another reality where his abilities can be used to more advantage.

The child had no problems of his own to work out in this existence, but because of love and past relationships he came to act as a light to you both. Now you may take your social break.

I use the word acquaintanceship, for in this life, on a physical level and in physical terms only, you did not understand him for what he was, though you sensed what he was and to some extent reacted to what he was.

...He wanted to give you an impetus, and his effect was far stronger when he died than had he lived, and he knew this... For his abilities could not have been used fully in this existence and he would have met frustration.

...He had a horror of living to young malehood, for he did not want to meet a young woman and become attracted to her and then continue with the physical existence.

Now, he would have been highly frustrated had he continued. Not having enough blood was significant. His vitality was here strongly (words missed), but it was not in physical terms... literally he deprived himself of blood so that he could live on his own terms, and so that the mother and father could live in ways that they have forgotten. There was no witness there, and he expected his death to bring out your own strengths.

Now, I have lived and died many times, and you must admit (Seth speaks strongly and humorously, forcefully, eyes open) that you can sense my vitality; and so I can tell you that the vitality of the boy exists in as vital terms. It would have been indeed almost a penance for him to have stayed here longer. You did not save his life one time, you helped him save his soul, and he gallantly returned the favor; for he at one time was tempted to use his abilities for power and to use the priesthood for gain, and on that occasion you stopped him. (Seth pointed to Dave.)

There was some alienation, not on the boy’s part but on your own—(to Estelle:) now look up so you will see who I am speaking of... with the boy, having to do with a past life.... You were afraid to accept him for what he was because of some references in your past lives together.

He knew this and was amused, and he had a game with you, for he knew you loved him, and he knew what you did not know: that because of a past life relationship you would find it difficult to realize who he was.

(To Dave:) Now, he had a mathematical knowledge, and you also have this whether or not you realize it. It results from priestly existences where you were both highly involved with calculations having to do with the movement of planets. This also has something to do with the hour of his birth and death, for he had a sense of neatness, and it pleased him to time his arrival and departure.

(11:30. Seth again ended on a strongly humorous note. The pace had been fast, as noted. Dave told us he had been good in math until the ninth grade, when he left it for other interests—singing, communications work, acting, etc.

There will be contact in your dream states. You are to rely upon the inner knowledge that he has intuitively made clear to you. You are not to rely upon him, but upon what he gave you. You are to look within yourselves, and he has left you the strengths to do so. (Pause.

(Smile.) You were a cowboy(to Dave), but not in this country. In France. You were not professionally a cowboy, but you dealt with transportation involved with horses. You did not die by gun wound. (Dave had said he thought he had, at last break.) You inflicted such a wound upon another, though this was in self-protection, and emotional impetus of the time was strongly written upon your inner memory.

Now. He was ready to leave, and he took what doorways were open, and had you closed them he would have found others.

It was not an ending to him, but a beginning, and it will be a beginning to you both. You will not see him now the heir to vulnerability, for he has passed beyond it in your terms, and he chose his own gateway. You will not see him grow old, but he has grown old many times, and there was no need for him to grow old again.

You are to develop your own abilities, and he will help you develop them now. In many ways he is able to communicate with you now, as he could not as a child. (Pause.) You will have much to tell others, and you will be able to help them. I am speaking now to the father; but only if you look for answers within yourself and not from others.

He will help you and he will also help his mother. On one occasion the mother and the son were brothers, and in friendly rivalry; and that rivalry to some extent still lingered, but it was a rivalry that was built upon love. (Pause.)

You have indeed been given a blessing. The son came to you out of love, for he did not need to come. His own problems here were solved, and he had met his challenges. All his abilities were fulfilled that could be fulfilled within this framework. He was ready for other fields of reality.

([John:] “Not totally. Out of the first triangle one would fall; he has already fallen as a matter of fact. Is there to be a man in the second triangle who falls?”