“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He intended a strong inner self to take over control of the entire personality. The ego however was terrified at the thought. Long after he wished the ego to return, the ego hid. He battered down his own doors. He is seeking enlightenment, but he was not strong enough to contain it.

Great adjustments would have had to occur in any case, and subconsciously he was aware of this. He could not have survived as a contributing psychological unit within your system otherwise. The causes began, generally speaking, about the year 1938, and were heightened in the years 1942 to 1947. At the time the course was set and the personality was developed, that had taken a wrong course, for it.

He has been plunged back into a physical universe that he would not accept even as a valid mirage. This time he will be able to find himself within it. (Long pause.) In his case he must accept himself as a human being before he can hope to discover the inner self. The ego got no help from him, and it could not carry on alone. There was a definite splitting of personality elements, and a complete abandonment by the inner self of the ego.

Someone who sees him, a male, is not doing him good at this time. It is important to realize that the condition would have erupted in any case. The usual ego would have been much more serviceable however, for a longer period of time, had he not taken the drugs. The whole personality however needed a readjustment, though this is more drastic than was necessary.

He had retreated into the formlessness that he had himself created. He will come out on the other side. There will be some distortions. (Pause.) Within three months time there should be a noticeable improvement. Now by improvement I mean an indication that a central core of personality is once again in charge.

Whether or not this personality will find merit with Bernard’s old friends is another matter, but a central core of personality must, and will again, take charge. It may display in the beginning too much rigidity, as a natural protection, but this in time will pass.

(11:25. Jane said her impression of the woman in question was of a person more masculine than usual for a female, but she didn’t voice this during the session. John said that while Seth was speaking the name Laura Bittner popped into his mind. He saw this woman, who is stocky and in her fifties or early sixties, at his mother’s funeral, for the first time in many years, and now remembered that L.B. had been a close friend of his mother’s when he [John] was a child.