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He has literally frightened himself away. He has disrupted the part of the self that usually deals with physical reality, and its manipulation. He tried to dispense with this physically-oriented ego, using shortcut methods.

The physical matters mentioned should be taken care of immediately. That will be a start. Now, he does not entirely recognize his position. (Long pause.) He has temporarily abdicated, but there is no basic reason to believe that this will be permanent. The danger does exist. However, I told you the ego was set aside, and fear was at the root.

He intended a strong inner self to take over control of the entire personality. The ego however was terrified at the thought. Long after he wished the ego to return, the ego hid. He battered down his own doors. He is seeking enlightenment, but he was not strong enough to contain it.

There is a possible new beginning for him, however, and it will be a new reorganization of tendencies that results in the formation of a new ego, born out of the old. (Long pause.) It must be formed slowly, as the child’s ego is. He wanted to cut out too many steps, you see, hence his difficulty.

This new ego that he must form will come slowly. It may be scarred, but it will be fairly dependable. He must face his responsibilities. It does him no good to let him avoid them, and it may do him severe harm.

The ego structure had been in danger for some time previous. Psychologically there was some considerable distance between his identity and the physical universe as he knew it. He did not quite make contact. It was too easy for him to stray.

He projected a meaninglessness upon reality, and then fell prey to it. Here the senses themselves can help revive him. (Long pause.) He seems now to be choosing between identities, but there is one waiting for him, and it is a probable ego that he did not adopt as a child.

He has been plunged back into a physical universe that he would not accept even as a valid mirage. This time he will be able to find himself within it. (Long pause.) In his case he must accept himself as a human being before he can hope to discover the inner self. The ego got no help from him, and it could not carry on alone. There was a definite splitting of personality elements, and a complete abandonment by the inner self of the ego.

The ego takes care of physical matters so that the inner self can go about its other concerns. To shunt it aside is highly dangerous. The inner self is then in a precarious position, for it must also attempt to deal with physical reality.

Now, it can form new ego elements to help it, and this is what is happening now.

Someone who sees him, a male, is not doing him good at this time. It is important to realize that the condition would have erupted in any case. The usual ego would have been much more serviceable however, for a longer period of time, had he not taken the drugs. The whole personality however needed a readjustment, though this is more drastic than was necessary.

This man will not be a stranger, yet he will not be the old Bernard, and Sarah can only help him by letting him know that she is there, and waiting. This is more important than it may appear, for the new ego will need guides to manipulate within physical reality once again.

The whole self contains the ego, and he ignored this. Any investigations into the nature of existence, and any true learning, must take place within all levels of the self. He cut off his ego to save his soul, and nearly lost both in the bargain. The ego indeed is part of the soul. It is one of the voices of the soul. (Long pause.)