“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

A relationship with one woman beside the mother here connected. An incident with candy bars as a child, of approximately 6, or in grade six. An inner formlessness. It was easy for him, deceptively easy, to overlook physical reality, to say that it was a mirage, simply because he had never completely enmeshed himself within it. He never met it squarely.

He has been plunged back into a physical universe that he would not accept even as a valid mirage. This time he will be able to find himself within it. (Long pause.) In his case he must accept himself as a human being before he can hope to discover the inner self. The ego got no help from him, and it could not carry on alone. There was a definite splitting of personality elements, and a complete abandonment by the inner self of the ego.

I am trying to get a word. My-barrow (my phonetic interpretation)—only it is one word. I believe a name or place designation. 1521, perhaps a house number, I do not know. He has been at this place or visited here frequently. Usually the shades are down. He still has drugs in his system, and they should be discontinued, all kinds, completely.