“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane has also recently received a phone call from a young husband in Franklin, LA, asking Seth’s help for his wife, who is very ill. We did not know who Seth would speak about first tonight, but surmised it would be Gene Bernard.

The physical matters mentioned should be taken care of immediately. That will be a start. Now, he does not entirely recognize his position. (Long pause.) He has temporarily abdicated, but there is no basic reason to believe that this will be permanent. The danger does exist. However, I told you the ego was set aside, and fear was at the root.

He intended a strong inner self to take over control of the entire personality. The ego however was terrified at the thought. Long after he wished the ego to return, the ego hid. He battered down his own doors. He is seeking enlightenment, but he was not strong enough to contain it.

This new ego that he must form will come slowly. It may be scarred, but it will be fairly dependable. He must face his responsibilities. It does him no good to let him avoid them, and it may do him severe harm.

He will emerge. The drugs allowed him to permit himself a luxury that he could ill afford. There are those who are so tightly meshed within physical reality that the soul is squeezed dry. They are tight, sore, and chafing beneath too-severe habits and ideas. For them momentary release, such as the drugs can give, is highly beneficial. For our friend however the inner self has been overly involved with wandering, and but lightly held within the limits of the intense focus demanded by physical reality. This freedom catered to his weakness, you see. Had he more discipline it could also have released his strength.

Now, it is indeed a mirage, but it is a mirage with which you must deal. It is not so much, you see, as he thought, that nothing has meaning. Everything has so much meaning that basically no one thing can have more meaning than another, because all reality is implied within each sample of it.

He projected a meaninglessness upon reality, and then fell prey to it. Here the senses themselves can help revive him. (Long pause.) He seems now to be choosing between identities, but there is one waiting for him, and it is a probable ego that he did not adopt as a child.

(In answer to a question Jane said she wasn’t projecting while giving the above data, but “almost thought I was trying to.” I said Sarah would undoubtedly like to know how the material obtained tonight could be put to use so as to obtain a practical result re Gene. Resume at 10:38.)

Whether or not this personality will find merit with Bernard’s old friends is another matter, but a central core of personality must, and will again, take charge. It may display in the beginning too much rigidity, as a natural protection, but this in time will pass.

(11:25. Jane said her impression of the woman in question was of a person more masculine than usual for a female, but she didn’t voice this during the session. John said that while Seth was speaking the name Laura Bittner popped into his mind. He saw this woman, who is stocky and in her fifties or early sixties, at his mother’s funeral, for the first time in many years, and now remembered that L.B. had been a close friend of his mother’s when he [John] was a child.