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He has literally frightened himself away. He has disrupted the part of the self that usually deals with physical reality, and its manipulation. He tried to dispense with this physically-oriented ego, using shortcut methods.

He intended a strong inner self to take over control of the entire personality. The ego however was terrified at the thought. Long after he wished the ego to return, the ego hid. He battered down his own doors. He is seeking enlightenment, but he was not strong enough to contain it.

He will emerge. The drugs allowed him to permit himself a luxury that he could ill afford. There are those who are so tightly meshed within physical reality that the soul is squeezed dry. They are tight, sore, and chafing beneath too-severe habits and ideas. For them momentary release, such as the drugs can give, is highly beneficial. For our friend however the inner self has been overly involved with wandering, and but lightly held within the limits of the intense focus demanded by physical reality. This freedom catered to his weakness, you see. Had he more discipline it could also have released his strength.

He is beginning to come together again. It is necessary now that he see through endeavors, and face the consequences of his own psychological action.

Now. From your viewpoint in three-dimensional reality it is safe, most advantageous, to journey into other dimensions only when you have a reliable vehicle in which to travel. You cannot leap out of the craft in midstream, so to speak, nor have the craft develop serious difficulties when you are far from shore. This is what happened.

A relationship with one woman beside the mother here connected. An incident with candy bars as a child, of approximately 6, or in grade six. An inner formlessness. It was easy for him, deceptively easy, to overlook physical reality, to say that it was a mirage, simply because he had never completely enmeshed himself within it. He never met it squarely.

Now, it is indeed a mirage, but it is a mirage with which you must deal. It is not so much, you see, as he thought, that nothing has meaning. Everything has so much meaning that basically no one thing can have more meaning than another, because all reality is implied within each sample of it.

He projected a meaninglessness upon reality, and then fell prey to it. Here the senses themselves can help revive him. (Long pause.) He seems now to be choosing between identities, but there is one waiting for him, and it is a probable ego that he did not adopt as a child.

The ego takes care of physical matters so that the inner self can go about its other concerns. To shunt it aside is highly dangerous. The inner self is then in a precarious position, for it must also attempt to deal with physical reality.

The change will come from an implosion, rather than an explosion. He will make the required adjustments on his own.

He had retreated into the formlessness that he had himself created. He will come out on the other side. There will be some distortions. (Pause.) Within three months time there should be a noticeable improvement. Now by improvement I mean an indication that a central core of personality is once again in charge.

This man will not be a stranger, yet he will not be the old Bernard, and Sarah can only help him by letting him know that she is there, and waiting. This is more important than it may appear, for the new ego will need guides to manipulate within physical reality once again.

It is now important that he relearn the objective nature of your reality, the simple sanity of an apple as an apple. After this then perhaps he can begin to wonder at the reality behind the objective universe. Now he must let it nurse him.