“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You are very afraid of failure—hardly any crime—many are afraid of failure. But this causes you to avoid goals that you have a good possibility of achieving. If a goal is attainable and you fail to attain it, you see, then you feel you would have to blame yourself—and again, you do not want to accept the consequences of your own action.

You have chosen that goal because it does seem so difficult, and if you fail then you can blame circumstances rather than yourself.

Now. You need not be afraid of failure, and this is your main difficulty. You have strength and ability that you do not realize you possess, and it will withstand you. You do not have to be afraid of testing yourself against attainable goals. You do not have to look for windfalls.

You have your own abilities, and properly used they will lead to your own development and happiness. Remember, no one owes you anything, but you owe everything to yourself. Now if I sound like the old man from the mountain, so must it be. My heartiest good wishes to you however.