“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt therefore, sensing this, and abnormally sensitive to your wishes at this time, would not let the sessions be used to wound you, and bent his efforts to block such material. You also put up resistance because of your jealousy. The combined efforts held any help I could give to a minimum.

Your friend’s invitation was a direct answer to your need, which was telepathically received. The way, in other words, was provided. Such a change, drastic and complete, would have resulted in a shock to your own psychic system as well as Ruburt’s.

You had also been operating on inner cues which would have been broken, and in these lapses buried intuitions would have leaped up, bringing these truths in their wake. Frequent changes, as I told you, are beneficial for that reason.

Ruburt indeed felt attacked, but he would not fight against you, you see. He fought, but without ever daring face what it was he was fighting. Conditions in his own past prepared him for this docility, for which indeed his mother ridiculed him frequently; and yet the symptoms themselves, you see, were a way to fight you. For if he suffered because of them, he knew that you would also suffer, until finally you would have to admit the truths that could set you both free.

He knew that he would never do this. There is a strange, indeed rock-bottom refusal here, on his part to hurt anyone deeply, for whatever reason. It is impossible for his personality therefore to do anything he feels (underlined) would hurt the one person in the world with whom he feels close.

This is the result of his intimate knowledge of what it is to be so hurt, connected with the mother experience. Therefore in this situation he would fight back but he could not hurt you. This did not leave him with much room. You did leave him with some however, for the symptoms themselves were the means that would bring you to these realizations. And he knew underneath that it would only go so far before you would realize what was happening. He did not know where the point was however.

Now. The duality in your own psychic condition, Joseph, would have eventually destroyed your capacity to work.

This would have operated as a self-punishment for the symptoms inflicted upon Ruburt, had they continued throughout any period of years. Such duality cannot exist for long without destroying creative aspects of the personality.

Ruburt would have continued to work, though physically quite incapacitated. These conditions however would not likely have resulted. You both had something very strong working for you, still strong enough to help, and that was the creative intuitive nature, which would have in one way or another made the facts plain.

These measures will all help in disrupting any lingering ghost patterns you see. I would (underlined) suggest a change in the kitchen if any were remotely possible. If no major rearrangement is possible, minor changes should be made.

I suggest we end the session. You would do well to paint your entire room. (The studio.) It will clear your mind and help your work. I will speak briefly about this if you are not tired.