“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(On July 3 and July 5th, I held long pendulum sessions, trying to learn what subconscious role I have been playing in Jane’s symptoms. I obtained much valid information. Jane at first did not agree with my findings, but her own pendulum verified my results.

This contest between you had much to do with Ruburt’s fear in obtaining reincarnational material that could perhaps be checked. He felt you did not want him to succeed here, and that despite what you said, for you always verbally encouraged him, you did not want him to receive clairvoyant checkable material. You were jealous of his rather limited projection attempts, and he stopped them for this reason.

Ruburt indeed felt attacked, but he would not fight against you, you see. He fought, but without ever daring face what it was he was fighting. Conditions in his own past prepared him for this docility, for which indeed his mother ridiculed him frequently; and yet the symptoms themselves, you see, were a way to fight you. For if he suffered because of them, he knew that you would also suffer, until finally you would have to admit the truths that could set you both free.

This is the result of his intimate knowledge of what it is to be so hurt, connected with the mother experience. Therefore in this situation he would fight back but he could not hurt you. This did not leave him with much room. You did leave him with some however, for the symptoms themselves were the means that would bring you to these realizations. And he knew underneath that it would only go so far before you would realize what was happening. He did not know where the point was however.

You had made your peace, both of you, at another level, but the two personalities as you know them still had to come to terms in your normal reality. Ruburt has an unfortunate sense of unworthiness, without which the situation could not have developed.

There will be much to say concerning Ruburt’s part in the whole situation, and we will try to lead the way so that your characteristics and needs help each other. What has happened here happens frequently, as you have guessed.

The painting of the apartment is beneficial, in its symbolic representation, and for what it means to you both on other levels. Now give us a moment. (Long pause.) Incidentally, you also wanted Ruburt thin, you see. You did not want to nourish his success.