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Denied feelings gather emotional impetus, and form emotional storms. There are ways to prevent such buildups. I strongly suggested a vacation, and it is because prior conditions were still operating that the two of you did not overcome your obstacles and leave.

You had also been operating on inner cues which would have been broken, and in these lapses buried intuitions would have leaped up, bringing these truths in their wake. Frequent changes, as I told you, are beneficial for that reason.

This would have operated as a self-punishment for the symptoms inflicted upon Ruburt, had they continued throughout any period of years. Such duality cannot exist for long without destroying creative aspects of the personality.

He has been afraid of directing either outward for fear of hurting others. (Long pause.) He must learn to handle normal aggressions, and yet when he is operating spontaneously his natural exuberance is a mechanism for such release. (Long pause.) He was aware of your feelings. He felt that any success of his was a threat to you. (Long pause.)

Ruburt’s morning symptoms were also connected with you. You did not like to face morning at the Artistic Card Company, but Ruburt had the symptoms, you see. Other reasons also operated here, from his own background.

Now, one brief explanation here, for this sort of thing operates in good as well as poor circumstances. Ruburt’s morning symptoms, for example. I told you why he had them this evening, but then they become associated with certain objects and surroundings, which serve as an automatic perpetuation, you see, in varying degrees.