“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, my dear Joseph… You have also been jealous of Ruburt’s part in our sessions, and at times highly resentful, particularly of the attention he received when others were present. In the overall however while you were delighted on the one hand to have the sessions, you were jealous of the part Ruburt played.

He knew that he would never do this. There is a strange, indeed rock-bottom refusal here, on his part to hurt anyone deeply, for whatever reason. It is impossible for his personality therefore to do anything he feels (underlined) would hurt the one person in the world with whom he feels close.

Ruburt would have continued to work, though physically quite incapacitated. These conditions however would not likely have resulted. You both had something very strong working for you, still strong enough to help, and that was the creative intuitive nature, which would have in one way or another made the facts plain.

Now, one brief explanation here, for this sort of thing operates in good as well as poor circumstances. Ruburt’s morning symptoms, for example. I told you why he had them this evening, but then they become associated with certain objects and surroundings, which serve as an automatic perpetuation, you see, in varying degrees.

These are important details however. The chests in the bathroom should be painted. The bookcase there (just moved in) breaks up old conditions, and is good. The chests should be covered as soon as possible to break up associations. Ruburt should change the arrangement of his clothes in those chests. The shoes should be kept in another place than the accustomed one.

I cannot emphasize too strongly the breakup of associations that will result. This will aid in the complete disappearance of symptoms. Otherwise you could have lingering, though far minor ones, while these habitual objects lost their associative powers, you see.

There is a darkness in the oils however which you find frightening, and a heaviness, you see. You were afraid of letting go with oils, for fear of facing the subconscious forces they represented. (Again, excellent data.) The color of your studio is a good one.

One note: Ruburt felt guilty over your second cat (Catherine) initially, feeling you did not want him. As you grew affectionate to the cat, Ruburt’s feeling vanished.