“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This contest between you had much to do with Ruburt’s fear in obtaining reincarnational material that could perhaps be checked. He felt you did not want him to succeed here, and that despite what you said, for you always verbally encouraged him, you did not want him to receive clairvoyant checkable material. You were jealous of his rather limited projection attempts, and he stopped them for this reason.

He has been afraid of directing either outward for fear of hurting others. (Long pause.) He must learn to handle normal aggressions, and yet when he is operating spontaneously his natural exuberance is a mechanism for such release. (Long pause.) He was aware of your feelings. He felt that any success of his was a threat to you. (Long pause.)

You felt oils murky, representing the subconscious hidden fears and desires of which you were frightened. You considered them threatening, too easy, oils. Explosive, you see. (Pause.) The temperas meant discipline, but every tempera you did contained an oil within it.

There is a darkness in the oils however which you find frightening, and a heaviness, you see. You were afraid of letting go with oils, for fear of facing the subconscious forces they represented. (Again, excellent data.) The color of your studio is a good one.