“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt indeed felt attacked, but he would not fight against you, you see. He fought, but without ever daring face what it was he was fighting. Conditions in his own past prepared him for this docility, for which indeed his mother ridiculed him frequently; and yet the symptoms themselves, you see, were a way to fight you. For if he suffered because of them, he knew that you would also suffer, until finally you would have to admit the truths that could set you both free.

Ruburt’s morning symptoms were also connected with you. You did not like to face morning at the Artistic Card Company, but Ruburt had the symptoms, you see. Other reasons also operated here, from his own background.

There is a darkness in the oils however which you find frightening, and a heaviness, you see. You were afraid of letting go with oils, for fear of facing the subconscious forces they represented. (Again, excellent data.) The color of your studio is a good one.