“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt indeed felt attacked, but he would not fight against you, you see. He fought, but without ever daring face what it was he was fighting. Conditions in his own past prepared him for this docility, for which indeed his mother ridiculed him frequently; and yet the symptoms themselves, you see, were a way to fight you. For if he suffered because of them, he knew that you would also suffer, until finally you would have to admit the truths that could set you both free.

Ruburt would have continued to work, though physically quite incapacitated. These conditions however would not likely have resulted. You both had something very strong working for you, still strong enough to help, and that was the creative intuitive nature, which would have in one way or another made the facts plain.

The time element however could have been lengthened. Both of you actually decided that the situation had gone too far, and had telepathically communicated. The strength of Ruburt’s telepathic communication terrified you because you then felt the terrific burden that had been upon you, and this set you to work with the pendulum.

You had made your peace, both of you, at another level, but the two personalities as you know them still had to come to terms in your normal reality. Ruburt has an unfortunate sense of unworthiness, without which the situation could not have developed.

There are also quite beneficial forces in your personalities that uphold you both, and of which you are unaware.

The painting of the apartment is beneficial, in its symbolic representation, and for what it means to you both on other levels. Now give us a moment. (Long pause.) Incidentally, you also wanted Ruburt thin, you see. You did not want to nourish his success.

This will do for this evening. My heartiest wishes to you both, and welcome to the light again, the two of you.