“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now Ruburt has said, and I have said, do not blame yourself, and this is valid in those terms. It is much more important that you understand the meshworks that exist, and the importance of integrity in dealings with the self.

This would have operated as a self-punishment for the symptoms inflicted upon Ruburt, had they continued throughout any period of years. Such duality cannot exist for long without destroying creative aspects of the personality.

He felt that you begrudged him the food he ate, hence the shopping symptoms. As your attitude changed these symptoms began to vanish. And as your attitude has further changed he has begun to eat more. Now his own background, with its self-denial and early religious esthetic training, also played its part, you see.

You have rationalized your window arrangement. You have the windows covered (with the plastic winter weatherproofing material) as a self-punishment. It prevents you from seeing clearly a view that you deeply love. The rug should be removed. You do not like it.