“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your combined emotional state amounts to an atmosphere, highly charged, through which I must penetrate. I have done my best, and yet I highly regret I could do so little. The blockage was not only Ruburt’s, but your own. It was an emotional shield, and I gave you all the hints I could.

This contest between you had much to do with Ruburt’s fear in obtaining reincarnational material that could perhaps be checked. He felt you did not want him to succeed here, and that despite what you said, for you always verbally encouraged him, you did not want him to receive clairvoyant checkable material. You were jealous of his rather limited projection attempts, and he stopped them for this reason.

Now Ruburt has said, and I have said, do not blame yourself, and this is valid in those terms. It is much more important that you understand the meshworks that exist, and the importance of integrity in dealings with the self.

He knew that he would never do this. There is a strange, indeed rock-bottom refusal here, on his part to hurt anyone deeply, for whatever reason. It is impossible for his personality therefore to do anything he feels (underlined) would hurt the one person in the world with whom he feels close.

Do you want a rest?

Do as you wish concerning the boy. You can help him very much, and will in any case. You will also meet in any case.

Dating back, Ruburt’s barriers about the work area were also barriers against you. At times before he buried the feeling, he resented it when you sat at his (underlined) table. Do you recall?

I suggest we end the session. You would do well to paint your entire room. (The studio.) It will clear your mind and help your work. I will speak briefly about this if you are not tired.

You have rationalized your window arrangement. You have the windows covered (with the plastic winter weatherproofing material) as a self-punishment. It prevents you from seeing clearly a view that you deeply love. The rug should be removed. You do not like it.

This will do for this evening. My heartiest wishes to you both, and welcome to the light again, the two of you.