“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It seeks outlet and must find it, and must find it a manner that satisfies the creative abilities. The excitement need not be physical, though it will find some reflection in physical terms. He has enormous energy at his disposal, a large portion of which has been misdirected in the form of symptoms, and partially out of resentment.

The resentment was basic. The ESP book brought this out; that is, did not cause the resentment—the resentment was there—but allowed the resentment release. He did not feel that the publisher shared any enthusiasm from the beginning. He did feel that Wollheim did, and had no resentment toward Wollheim, though he did not publish the book. He felt Wollheim’s enthusiasm.

The power of his energies, unfortunately, can be seen quite clearly in the severity of the symptoms that the energy formed when it was so misdirected. The personal material on his background that I gave you is all part of this, of course. He felt extreme resentment at Fell generally. Since he did not want to hurt anyone, this ricocheted, affecting him. (F. Fell published the ESP book.)

If fear or resentment stops up the flow, then their origin, untranslated, unredeemed and unsublimated, causes physical symptoms and disorders. The system will right itself if given any chance. The poetry is his best touchstone here. He was angry at Fell for rather obvious reasons, but the reasons involved his work, which touched upon his energy, and this caused then the unfortunate comparison between Fell and Ruburt’s father. He reacted then as Ruburt’s mother reacted when deserted by the father. He adopted the same symptoms if not the disease itself.

The intuitive self is now freed enough to make this possible, and provide the way, you see. The dream book should be finished. The resentment was not connected with the book per se, and in fact hampered the book’s development.

He projected his resentment into the future, and against all other publishers for awhile, anticipating the same sort of response as he felt the ESP book had received. He stopped sending out any material at all, for this reason. It is a healthy sign that he has changed his stand here.

He had, in fact, given some excellent suggestions earlier, which still served to protect him during the afternoon. These wore off and were not renewed, and the intense resentment then emerged in the symptoms.