“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

At the same time, of course, conflicting is the desire to be known as a successful writer in his hometown, but to do so he must be known again, you see. He is afraid, literally, walking the streets of Saratoga, sneaking in and out when he visits. But here he feels is the best part of himself, unprotected, and the self he tried really to hide, now displayed.

He did not want her to read the book, you see. He felt this left him open. His expectations, in other words, caused the attack, unfortunately. These feelings began when the book was definitely accepted. They did not grow into such actual disproportionate terms until the time of actual showing arrived.

The date was changed time and again. On one hand this gave him respite. On the other hand, he was angry at the delays. Added to this was what he felt to be the need to find employment, and the hope that his writing could be his livelihood. This has a connection with his grandfather that I will mention later.

There is some sensitivity to beads at this time only due to a picture in which his mother wears them with short skirts. It is the combination, rather than the beads alone.

Your own positive action with the pendulum and in your personal life with Ruburt has been most beneficial, and resulted in the kind of support he needed at this time.

He should not attempt at this time to write anything more than a friendly letter to his mother. When he tries to open up in a letter he panics. The pendulum sessions are helping indeed. I have given you most beneficial material this evening and I will close our session. Ruburt should read this many times.

(“Have you got time for a question?"

Give me a moment. (Pause.) It is a rather lengthy explanation. (Pause.) The cavemen were pseudorealities. There were five others involved. There was a time travel here, but it was into a probable past. You knew that this was a reality in which you had not participated. You were in no danger within it, for you had never existed in it. The others were probability travelers like yourself. If you like, I will give you a more detailed explanation at our next session.