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Now, we shall begin by talking around some issues. To some extent the fact that Ruburt’s book is being read in his hometown disconcerts him. Those whom he relegated to the past are brought into the present. This causes some (panic?); there is a feeling that he is back in their control, and that the book in this respect has lain him vulnerable.

Now. The sore hip episodes represented the peak of inner panic, and the crises point of the whole affair. Ruburt recognized this as a particular danger point and managed to break away here. He began slowly to open up the channels he had closed and he took first steps toward regaining health. He could have become seriously ill several months ago, but he avoided this. He has been on a road to recovery since, though an uneven one. When he returns to work, this is the first sign.

Your own attitude toward Frederick Fell, and your remarks to Ruburt, deeply frightened him, for they reinforced the nagging feeling that Fell would not do well by him as his father had not done well by his mother. This was the sore point always felt in those discussions. He felt cornered, you see, as if you were saying, “I told you so, your deepest fears will be realized.”

It just happens, you see, that when Ruburt’s mother was coming down with arthritis, Ruburt was in the early grades—a kindergarten room with blocks and small stools and cloak room. This simply brings up associations, of course, with the nursery school, serving as another connection with his mother’s symptoms.

If he were not already sensitized, these connections would not have bothered him, and they should fade as the general sensitivity disappears. It was because of such sensitivities being activated that Ruburt earlier responded in Marathon (Florida) to a sweater sent by his mother.

Ruburt felt safe if his mother read his fiction, you see, for it was several steps removed from his inner life.

Your own positive action with the pendulum and in your personal life with Ruburt has been most beneficial, and resulted in the kind of support he needed at this time.

He should not attempt at this time to write anything more than a friendly letter to his mother. When he tries to open up in a letter he panics. The pendulum sessions are helping indeed. I have given you most beneficial material this evening and I will close our session. Ruburt should read this many times.