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Now, we shall begin by talking around some issues. To some extent the fact that Ruburt’s book is being read in his hometown disconcerts him. Those whom he relegated to the past are brought into the present. This causes some (panic?); there is a feeling that he is back in their control, and that the book in this respect has lain him vulnerable.

At the same time, of course, conflicting is the desire to be known as a successful writer in his hometown, but to do so he must be known again, you see. He is afraid, literally, walking the streets of Saratoga, sneaking in and out when he visits. But here he feels is the best part of himself, unprotected, and the self he tried really to hide, now displayed.

It is this basic feeling about the book and Saratoga that suddenly activated past associations and brought on some identification with his mother. He should remember here that he is not the person who lived in Saratoga now, unless he chooses in a self-limiting way to be so. The book itself, oddly enough, provides a certain protection for it informs others of his basic strength. It shocked him to know that people of the past were reading the book in his present, and seemed to draw him closer to those original associations that caused him to leave Saratoga.

Now you may take a break for your hand’s sake.

Now. The sore hip episodes represented the peak of inner panic, and the crises point of the whole affair. Ruburt recognized this as a particular danger point and managed to break away here. He began slowly to open up the channels he had closed and he took first steps toward regaining health. He could have become seriously ill several months ago, but he avoided this. He has been on a road to recovery since, though an uneven one. When he returns to work, this is the first sign.

Or if you prefer, now.