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He has shown himself, so to speak, and can therefore be a target. The immobilization was partially a fear reaction, and yet it had some elements of courage in it, in that he would run in fear no longer, but face issues.

At the same time, of course, conflicting is the desire to be known as a successful writer in his hometown, but to do so he must be known again, you see. He is afraid, literally, walking the streets of Saratoga, sneaking in and out when he visits. But here he feels is the best part of himself, unprotected, and the self he tried really to hide, now displayed.

Now. The sore hip episodes represented the peak of inner panic, and the crises point of the whole affair. Ruburt recognized this as a particular danger point and managed to break away here. He began slowly to open up the channels he had closed and he took first steps toward regaining health. He could have become seriously ill several months ago, but he avoided this. He has been on a road to recovery since, though an uneven one. When he returns to work, this is the first sign.

What he refers to as the shallowness, comparatively speaking, of his sexual response, had its beginning, again, when he knew the book would be published. This was at first simply a temporary fear reaction, but it lengthened you see as other developments deepened his fear.

Many early morning symptoms of a few months ago were direct mimicry of the mother in this identification, but these particular ones have vanished.

Give me a moment. (Pause.) It is a rather lengthy explanation. (Pause.) The cavemen were pseudorealities. There were five others involved. There was a time travel here, but it was into a probable past. You knew that this was a reality in which you had not participated. You were in no danger within it, for you had never existed in it. The others were probability travelers like yourself. If you like, I will give you a more detailed explanation at our next session.

(10:27. Jane’s voice was quiet throughout the session, her pace mostly good, but with some long pauses. She spoke while sitting down.