“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, we shall begin by talking around some issues. To some extent the fact that Ruburt’s book is being read in his hometown disconcerts him. Those whom he relegated to the past are brought into the present. This causes some (panic?); there is a feeling that he is back in their control, and that the book in this respect has lain him vulnerable.

It is this basic feeling about the book and Saratoga that suddenly activated past associations and brought on some identification with his mother. He should remember here that he is not the person who lived in Saratoga now, unless he chooses in a self-limiting way to be so. The book itself, oddly enough, provides a certain protection for it informs others of his basic strength. It shocked him to know that people of the past were reading the book in his present, and seemed to draw him closer to those original associations that caused him to leave Saratoga.

Reading this material and understanding the nature of this attack should end it. His book is helping others in Saratoga. He should be drawing gratitude and health from this thought reality. The yoga exercises will in themselves straighten out the kinks here, with his understanding, as he begins to automatically attract forces of health and vitality.

He did not want her to read the book, you see. He felt this left him open. His expectations, in other words, caused the attack, unfortunately. These feelings began when the book was definitely accepted. They did not grow into such actual disproportionate terms until the time of actual showing arrived.

He felt that the dream book had let him down when it was rejected. His last experience in sitting in a yard with any regularity happened many years ago. He recalls a photo of his mother in the backyard when he was about seven. She had difficulty then and could not walk well. Because of other conflicts he remembered this, this Summer when he sat in the yard. His mother visited chiropractors, osteopaths, and he knows it. This gives rise to a suggestibility that should be taken into consideration in any visits of his own.

Because of the temporary mother identification, he was open to the suggestion he had concerning his publisher, as the father of his book, you see. He also, because of this identification, feared he would become crippled and that you would leave him. Hence he was supersensitive when he thought you had lost interest in his writing and when he interpreted some of your actions as general neglect or lack of real affection.

What he refers to as the shallowness, comparatively speaking, of his sexual response, had its beginning, again, when he knew the book would be published. This was at first simply a temporary fear reaction, but it lengthened you see as other developments deepened his fear.