“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

At the same time, of course, conflicting is the desire to be known as a successful writer in his hometown, but to do so he must be known again, you see. He is afraid, literally, walking the streets of Saratoga, sneaking in and out when he visits. But here he feels is the best part of himself, unprotected, and the self he tried really to hide, now displayed.

It is this basic feeling about the book and Saratoga that suddenly activated past associations and brought on some identification with his mother. He should remember here that he is not the person who lived in Saratoga now, unless he chooses in a self-limiting way to be so. The book itself, oddly enough, provides a certain protection for it informs others of his basic strength. It shocked him to know that people of the past were reading the book in his present, and seemed to draw him closer to those original associations that caused him to leave Saratoga.

Your parties were helpful. The moderate drinking helped reunite the conscious and subconscious as a total self, knocking out the unwholesome identification with the mother. The swearing bears a direct relationship to the mother’s language.