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Now there are pills I believe that once taken become activated again within given time periods. This is how your virus acted, and you yourself triggered it. Now there was a connection here with a vaccine, I believe taken by you and Ruburt, that should not have affected you at all.

You activated it yourself, and I would not tell you this until you had completely conquered it. Ordinarily it would not have been dangerous at all, and it was not dangerous to Ruburt.

You struck out at yourself because in the past you found pleasure in doing something, and you were well paid to do it. Then you turned to something, painting, for which you were not well paid. You were caught between two reactions. One, resentment against the world in general, hence you listened to the news and picked out purposely the most blatant of your fellow mans’ transgressions, deriving from them perverse pleasure.

The other was to hurt yourself. Now, it has taken you this much time to recover completely, and without our sessions recovery would have been slower. Now, your energy can indeed bubble up freely in your work.