“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(In the 232nd session for February 9,1966 Seth suggested that a portion of a session a month be devoted to our psychic and physical circumstances. He agreed with my suggestion that we try the first session after the first of each month. We haven’t been this faithful but have decided to make stronger efforts here. There will thus be more deletions in the future. None of this evening’s material is cut. I regard it as illuminating and a good example of the way Seth presents such material. On but two or three occasions in the past we have eliminated personal material from these records. This material is on file and available to anyone studying these sessions.

You are now out of the woods, physically speaking. You have passed the period where in the past illness was most probable. The afternoon at your parents’ home could have initiated an illness, but did not because of your more rational reactions.

In the past a virus operated of a peculiar kind. There was a subconscious bargain made, and your dream of the other evening is connected here. Whether or not we have time to discuss it this evening I do not know.

You were upset psychically for all of the reasons that I have given you in the past. The subconscious bargain was this: For relative freedom the rest of the year, you settled for a virus that would hit you any time between January and March 20.

You struck out at yourself because in the past you found pleasure in doing something, and you were well paid to do it. Then you turned to something, painting, for which you were not well paid. You were caught between two reactions. One, resentment against the world in general, hence you listened to the news and picked out purposely the most blatant of your fellow mans’ transgressions, deriving from them perverse pleasure.