“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(As soon as I fully, consciously, realized what was taking place, I reacted violently in the manner described below by Seth. Within a very brief period after this unfortunate reaction, I began to regret it, for I knew I had terminated something much too soon. I thought my reaction was a normal one, yet was angry at myself for reacting so strongly. My outcry, my thrashing about in bed and waving my arms, of course startled Jane; I believe she had not yet fallen asleep. I blamed myself for not knowing enough to suspend any conscious judgment; I felt I had enough background knowledge to go along with this vision, to see what developed, yet I had reacted in what I thought a foolish way.

The point of such contact can indeed be mathematically shown, and in the future I shall do just that. Part of your own reaction, I believe, was due to the fact that you realized that this contact represented a personal encounter, that this bizarre apparition was aware of you as you were of him.

(“What was his reaction to me?”

First you displayed, if I may say so, a rather unfortunate reaction. You were quite ready to strike out physically at what you could not understand. And this reaction broke the contact.

You did not break it purposely, but the other individual concerned was bewildered, and to some extent frightened, and he withdrew. You were indeed quite willing to strike out physically. It was this emotional reaction that was felt by the other individual, and the other individual had no idea what this emotion was.

Now. Despite my remarks, your reaction was perfectly understandable.

Long enough, however, to make a few comments. Ruburt was not particularly at his best this evening, simply because he was somewhat upset over your reaction, Joseph, to the car episode.

There is no use pretending of course not to be annoyed. The point is simply to do your best, so that you gradually learn not to inhibit your reactions to them, but to change the nature of your habitual reactions to them.

Incidents of this nature may seem trivial. However patterns of behavior are extremely important, and such focus upon disturbances are directly opposed to all I have been trying to tell you. And I am speaking here only of one individual, but such reactions are also picked up by others on a subconscious basis, and the circle can be a vicious one.