“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(As soon as I fully, consciously, realized what was taking place, I reacted violently in the manner described below by Seth. Within a very brief period after this unfortunate reaction, I began to regret it, for I knew I had terminated something much too soon. I thought my reaction was a normal one, yet was angry at myself for reacting so strongly. My outcry, my thrashing about in bed and waving my arms, of course startled Jane; I believe she had not yet fallen asleep. I blamed myself for not knowing enough to suspend any conscious judgment; I felt I had enough background knowledge to go along with this vision, to see what developed, yet I had reacted in what I thought a foolish way.

(Strange to say, I did not come fully awake as one does when arising in the morning for example. I achieved a state close to waking only, in spite of my momentary panic. Jane began to question me; she told me the next morning that I described the vision to her while speaking in a sleepy monotone. I was conscious of doing this, and that it took some little time, yet felt no urge to prod myself wide awake. I recall that I felt it urgent that I tell her what had taken place as soon as possible. I thought of getting up to make a drawing of what I had seen, but decided I would not forget. This is certainly true; this vision is as vivid and clear in memory today as it was a second after it ended. I do intend making a drawing, in color, for those who may be interested.

You could just as well have tuned in, so to speak, on any one of the numberless other such systems. The individual within this particular other system, however, has a different sort of psychological makeup than your own. He is not as capable of intense concentration within as large a perspective as that possessed by your ego.

The entity has awareness of these ten portions of itself. Consciously however no one of the ten personalities is aware of the others, nor of the entity. Each of the ten egos travels along an egotistical time of successive moments. We understand that subconsciously much more knowledge is available, but not to the ego as a rule.

A small meeting this afternoon, with one older and one younger man. Perhaps at five o’clock. (Pause.) A wish of Dr. Instream’s that is fulfilled, having to do with a project.

Some guests at his office earlier, in the nature of nuisances. A connection here with Ticonderoga. Perhaps one of the visitors was from there. I do not know, but this has application connected with his office today. (Pause.)

Ruburt does this in his own way also. The one who is at any given time free of such difficulty should indeed help the other when such occasions arise. You actually put yourself in a trance state, and the suggestions take strong hold; and they are rarely constructive ones at such times.

Incidents of this nature may seem trivial. However patterns of behavior are extremely important, and such focus upon disturbances are directly opposed to all I have been trying to tell you. And I am speaking here only of one individual, but such reactions are also picked up by others on a subconscious basis, and the circle can be a vicious one.