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—subconsciously, and subconsciously the father knows. And why else would he demand from a son that which no father has a right to demand? He, the father, subconsciously knew and remembered this betrayal, and he would see to it that the present personality paid, and paid in full.

He has taken at least as much as he gave, and there were sly and secret ways in which the father repaid him. Yet here we have further conflict, because indeed the present father loves the present son. It is not the son that he would wound. It is the man that son once was.

The incident, and I will mention it but consciously it will mean nothing, the incident represented the individual’s final success after many failures to bring forth circumstances that would then allow, or seem to cause, the peculiar set of symptoms that he felt necessary in order to repay old debts.

Saturday afternoon he was five, not six, and for unforeseen reasons left alone for a mere ten minutes in a large house, circumstances being such that only for a brief time no one was present. He played with a large ball, and the actual incident was so simple and uncomplicated that under ordinary circumstances it would have resulted in no such results.

The son is even now coming to an inner understanding. Indeed much of this I gain for Ruburt through subconscious telepathy from the personality involved. Were this not so it would be more difficult, but possible, for me to tell you what I do. And if I sound dour and heavy-handed it is only because I must sometimes deal with Ruburt with a heavy hand.