“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You should know, and Ruburt should certainly know, that you form your own physical image in a most actual and practical manner, with all its defects, for your own reasons. And so has he.

Since I will not give a session simply to give a session, and because I will not let Ruburt parade me as part of his precious subconscious, I will indeed here speak for myself, but in terms that will help another and for the benefit of that other. And despite our anxious Ruburt’s furious attempts to block me, I will indeed say that the person who was once betrayed by the personality involved was the present father of the personality, and he knows it—

I am not implying that the father consciously intends either unkindness nor revenge, any more than I am implying that Ruburt intended unkindness or revenge on Walter Zeh; yet was this not the result, and is it not the result here?

I suggest your break. Nor do I here, despite Ruburt, apologize for what may be considered a slight invasion of family affairs. For if the information given is understood and applied, then the vicious circle of relationship can be broken, and a new constructive relationship can be at last attained.

Everything becomes plain. Such and such happened to me at the age of five or six, and ever after have I acted thus and so. So it is with Ruburt’s eyes. The panic reaction, which is true, the fear of seeing reality as it was when he was a child; but this indeed is only a symptom of a symptom, and not an origin.

It was indeed the sight of that portion of the stove glowing, however, that made him try to call out. There is somewhat more here, but our illustrious and pigheaded Ruburt has indeed implied that I should somewhat maintain silence.

The son is even now coming to an inner understanding. Indeed much of this I gain for Ruburt through subconscious telepathy from the personality involved. Were this not so it would be more difficult, but possible, for me to tell you what I do. And if I sound dour and heavy-handed it is only because I must sometimes deal with Ruburt with a heavy hand.

I may sound irascible, and if I do then indeed certainly I shall try to blame it on Ruburt, and say it is a distortion, though it is no distortion. I find it, however, a rather painful duty, self imposed, to delve into personal backgrounds, and consider myself rather dignified to adopt the pose of a Peeping Tom. But there are too few who can, either, look within themselves with candor, and if this material does anything, it must be oriented toward knowledge; and knowledge must be applied in your case in human terms.