“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The illness did represent, however, a needed warning, materialized into physical reality as illness. A warning that after all there had been a recent tendency on your part, though slight, to slide into negative thinking. The illness was meant to bring you up short, to make you think.

(I spent eight or nine days in bed, the victim of what is generally called a virus. At no time however did I blame a virus, feeling that the real cause was psychic, thus permitting the virus to come to the fore. I was somewhat embarrassed at having “goofed” psychically. As time passed, and while I pored over several daily New York City newspapers plus Elmira’s daily paper, I came to realize to a small extent that poor expectations on my part had much to do with my falling ill.

His nature is independent, but the independence is blunted when he is not sure of what he is dealing with. You felt his reaction to your attitude strongly, and you should have questioned yourself at that point. Ruburt was able to counteract the temporary but overall negative storm by his own creative energies, and focus strongly to protect you both.

Basically this concern for human welfare is indeed virtuous, but overindulged in it becomes loaded with possibilities that could be most unfortunate. You knew I was going to light into you this evening, as Ruburt would say. What I want, here, is the balance. Neither plunge yourself into the ignorance, doubts and injustices, so that you can see nothing else, nor close your eyes to them. But there must be a place within you where these do not exist, or the freedom of the inner self will be hampered, as far as its connection with the ego is concerned. Your deep consideration for human problems has indeed helped lead you to these sessions.

It is true that what will occur, in your terms, has already occurred in other terms, and that it is possible to perceive beyond your now into your so-called future. But here I am very careful of tampering, for tampering with “your” present tampers with “your” future. I suggest that in the last sentence you place the word your in quotes.

(End at 10:58. Jane was well dissociated. She said she retained an awareness of the gist of the material given during her first monologue, but that in successive monologues she lost all idea of what she had said.