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SESSION 134

(Jane was upset about her work this evening, so much so in fact that she would have missed the session had I not been too lazy to go dancing. It was a bitterly cold and windy night. While we were discussing our problems 9 PM arrived, so we held the session.

(Jane spoke at a fairly normal rate, in a voice that was for the most part quite strong and loud. She sat down, and her eyes were closed. She was also smoking during the first part of the session. She actually began speaking at 9:02.)

The inner discipline, the inner utilization of energy, the inner channeling and direction of energy on Ruburt’s part in these sessions, would have been impossible but a few years ago.

This involves on his part not a conscious, but a subconscious change of habit. The new habit he has acquired very well. The psychic explosions that have been fairly regular with him in the past, have been minimized to some considerable degree since our sessions began. No one is endeavoring to tamper with his personality, however, and it is his natural reaction to turn aggression, when it arises, outward in some manner, while he is almost superstitiously careful that it not be directed at another individual.

This is with him a fairly healthy reaction, and less disruptive than he thinks. You have been distrustful to some degree concerning Ruburt’s fidelity to the sessions, precisely because the sessions have become important to you. Ruburt at this time would not dispense with the sessions, although it is true that he sometimes consciously resents the discipline involved in their regularity.

Subconsciously however, the very regularity is reassuring to him, since a fairly permanent pattern exists despite the flux and flow of conscious inclination. I am not going to give over a full session to these matters. However some comments will be helpful.

There is also, though this will vanish, a strong giving of self in these sessions on Ruburt’s part, a giving of self that involves the momentary giving up of emotion. And when he is angry he does not want to give his anger up. What will vanish is any feeling on his part of being subconsciously drained, as he does feel occasionally, and only when he is perturbed at something else.

The material itself however shows that we are coming along very well, and able to get across delicate shadings of meanings that would not have been possible earlier. Our sessions have had a stabilizing effect upon you both, and will so continue.

On a conscious level you, Joseph, are much more given to regularity, and therefore more concerned when Ruburt shows signs of irregularity. It is however with him, as with you, the peculiar mixture of discipline and regularity with spontaneity that makes the sessions possible; and this quality in Ruburt, even of rebellion, that allows the sessions to continue.

For without a rebellious nature neither of you would have permitted the sessions to begin. From this mixture all creativity comes. Our regularity of sessions is now a necessity. This does not mean however that at times a session cannot be missed, or that such a missed session should be considered a significant symptom. Overall our schedule will be maintained, but we do not want rigidity, merely the spontaneity that comes, and the freedom that is achieved within discipline.

This may not seem so to you, but because subconsciously and basically, though not consciously, Ruburt trusts both his own intuition and the validity of our sessions. He will not allow the rambunctious portion of his personality to upset our schedule, but because he trusts all this subconsciously, he will not be as disturbed as you are if a session is missed.

This is because you are more apt to place stress upon regularity as a matter of your temperament, though you trust your intuitions in the sessions, as he does.