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This involves on his part not a conscious, but a subconscious change of habit. The new habit he has acquired very well. The psychic explosions that have been fairly regular with him in the past, have been minimized to some considerable degree since our sessions began. No one is endeavoring to tamper with his personality, however, and it is his natural reaction to turn aggression, when it arises, outward in some manner, while he is almost superstitiously careful that it not be directed at another individual.

This is with him a fairly healthy reaction, and less disruptive than he thinks. You have been distrustful to some degree concerning Ruburt’s fidelity to the sessions, precisely because the sessions have become important to you. Ruburt at this time would not dispense with the sessions, although it is true that he sometimes consciously resents the discipline involved in their regularity.

Subconsciously however, the very regularity is reassuring to him, since a fairly permanent pattern exists despite the flux and flow of conscious inclination. I am not going to give over a full session to these matters. However some comments will be helpful.

Without Ruburt’s now and then, really rather petty explosions, the stability of his working habits and the stability of emotional reactions would not be nearly as regular. The explosions are after all small ones, and of a harmless nature, that have a definite balancing tendency. Nor, my dear Joseph, are these explosions, though this is quite an exaggerated phrase, nor are these his alone; for he takes up also your hidden frustrations and angers, feels them deeply, though consciously he does not know this; and he then in these small explosions rather harmlessly dispels pent-up, small but potent emotional bombshells that belong to you both.

On a conscious level you, Joseph, are much more given to regularity, and therefore more concerned when Ruburt shows signs of irregularity. It is however with him, as with you, the peculiar mixture of discipline and regularity with spontaneity that makes the sessions possible; and this quality in Ruburt, even of rebellion, that allows the sessions to continue.

For without a rebellious nature neither of you would have permitted the sessions to begin. From this mixture all creativity comes. Our regularity of sessions is now a necessity. This does not mean however that at times a session cannot be missed, or that such a missed session should be considered a significant symptom. Overall our schedule will be maintained, but we do not want rigidity, merely the spontaneity that comes, and the freedom that is achieved within discipline.

This is because you are more apt to place stress upon regularity as a matter of your temperament, though you trust your intuitions in the sessions, as he does.

We have truly done much in a year. We will do more. If you were in Ruburt’s position, you would be more willingly regular than he; but my dear Joseph, your critical sense would block me much more than his, particularly in details. And in your position Ruburt would not do as well as you do.

(I have just finished an oil painting of two heads, male; one of the characters appealed greatly to Jane, and had since the beginning. I had not given it much thought, beyond wondering where I had gotten the idea for the painting to begin with. I had taken it somewhat for granted that the faces I painted were the result of some kind of telepathic information or subconscious memory. In the past Seth has stated that I often use these sources of information for my portraits. The head Jane likes is of a blond man, quite heavyset and evidently of a massive build. The features are rather regular, although the nose is somewhat prominent, the jaw square, the eyes blue. Jane does not care much for the other head in the painting, although as I worked on the picture I was as much intrigued by this head as by the other.