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(Jane has been reading Jung for the last few days. This afternoon she told me she thought Seth might talk about the self-conscious inner ego. As session time approached she had no idea of what her procedure would be—whether she would sit, stand, pace, open or close her eyes, etc. She was still worried also about the time element when her eyes were closed, and we agreed that I would ask for breaks if it seemed the monologues might carry past the customary half-hour limit.

(She was sitting opposite my table in a wicker chair as 9 PM arrived. She did not get up, or remove her glasses, but began to speak in a normal voice with her eyes closed and her head down somewhat. She was smoking.)

(The word was unfamiliar to me and I asked Jane to repeat it. She did so but I still did not understand it very clearly, and decided to wait until I could refer to Jung myself.

(Jane now paused, waved a hand and frowned. She was still sitting down, and had indeed slid quite a ways down in the chair; with her feet up on the register, she was actually very nearly in a prone position as she spoke. Her eyes were closed.)

(Break at 9:30. Jane’s eyelids were heavy, and she had trouble keeping her eyes open for some few minutes. She had been well dissociated, she said, going into a deep trance after the first sentence or two. Her pauses were not overly long, and she knew what she was saying as she gave voice to it, but then forgot it.

(Jane said that when she delivers material while sitting and with her eyes closed, she is aware of a feeling of resistance at going into the dissociated state. The feeling is not strong, but she is aware of it. Once more now she resumed dictation while sitting down and with her eyes closed. At times she was again in the prone position, which she achieved by sliding down in the wicker chair, and elevating her feet upon the register. Resume at 9:44.)

The choice was made and is always made by the inner ego, who does this appointing according to his knowledge, or its knowledge, of the personality’s qualities. Any of these subconscious personalities could have learned in some fashion to cope with the outside world as well as the present dominant ego, but for various reasons of inner development they could not be so trusted.

(Break at 10:06. Jane’s eyes opened slowly. She said she was so well dissociated that she could not remember what she said. She vaguely recalled hearing her voice. She was not bothered by any conception of time while speaking; yet she still wanted to be sure she “came out” on time.

(During break I mentioned John Bradley’s question on transubstantiation. Jane’s voice was quite strong, indeed loud, when she began dictating again. She remained seated with her eyes closed, and was smoking. Resume at 10:16.)

The consciousness had its origin in the subconscious, from which it sprang. The consciousness was not at one time the center of the subconscious. However, the inner ego was always the center of the subconscious.

(End at 10:29. Jane struggled to keep her eyes open. She was well dissociated, she said, and for some minutes after the session ended remembered only the last sentence she had delivered. Her voice had been loud, her diction clear. She had been very restless in her chair, ranging from an upright sitting position to a practically prone one.

(Jane said her voice sounded to her as though it issued from a point perhaps a foot in front of her mouth. This was a new feeling as far as she could recall, although she wasn’t sure whether or not it began at last break.)

(January 11, Monday, 11:30 AM: Saw a pair of scissors. Later, while resting, I received a mental impression of Linda Butts and perhaps her mother Betts. I am not certain it was Linda, but whoever it was was either very angry or frightened. Linda and Betts could have been arguing [although this is unlikely; as far as I know Linda is away at school.] All of this was a mental impression, more of a jumbled sense of sound and emotional clutter, with but vague images. I did not see Linda clearly, yet assigned this data to her.

(Right after this I felt a most odd sensation, one I can describe only as a definite, strong cluttering motion, jumbled, inside my head; like angry or upset symbols not translated into specific information, with a sense of sound in it. It was as if I picked up someone else’s physical and emotional jumbles.

(At the same time I felt the same sensation, although to a lesser degree, in my left kneecap, which instantly snapped or jerked my leg up. All this was direct and kinetic on my part.

(The time was approximately 6:30 PM.)