“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In many respects it is a reflector, the surface of the self looking outward. While this is necessary, the whole remainder of the self could not be left to an organizer or caretaker who did not focus his attentions within the depths but sat, as it were, on the front porch of the house, leaving the inner workings unattended. The outer ego does not want to meet the inner ego. The outer ego does not want to admit the existence of the inner ego. As the eye cannot see its own pupil without a mirror, so the outer ego could not even see itself, were it not that the inner ego hides in the depths of all reflections.

(Jane said she now believes her traditional pacing about has become a distraction largely; she thinks she no longer wishes to pace, except when she feels brief periods of resistance at the ego’s surrender on this point. On the whole she feels there is much less resistance to delivering the material while less active physically. She receives the data clearer this way. She is also not so aware of outside distractions, such as traffic passing the house, people in the hall outside our door, etc.

(January 7, Thursday, 11:30 AM: Mentally I saw Mother’s old house. Recalled writing a poem as a child that I had completely forgotten, and at the time it had seemed tremendous to me. I recalled only the first two lines: “My backyard is a garden, In beauty unsurpassed.” I saw the old kitchen linoleum in color, and the outside cellar roof. I recalled an item on the roof I had been trying to paint lately. I couldn’t see it clearly. My left hand moved by itself.