“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Saturday was May 23. All was quiet as far as Miss Callahan’s apartment was concerned. Jane and I did not see her, but on occasion we heard her voice through the door to her apartment as we used the hall. She had visitors on several occasions. Jane had visited her a couple of times through the week, and Miss Callahan now recognized her when she saw her. But it was obvious her memory was faulty.

(Returning home from a drive on Sunday, we were surprised to see Miss Callahan and her companion sitting on the front porch; this was something we had never seen her do in the four years we have lived here; Jane said that Miss Callahan appeared to be very restless, and that the last time she had visited her Miss Callahan had doodled and written constantly on a pad without seeming to be aware that she was doing so.

(Also on Saturday evening Jane and I attended a set of Japanese Noh plays at Elmira College, at the invitation of Bill Macdonnel, who had a part in one of them. Bill has been a witness several times. After the play, at a party for the cast and friends, Bill was seized by severe chest and back pain; he left for home with his parents.

(It will be noted that this day, May 23, marks the time when Jane had the vision of sickly hands, at a very late hour after we had returned home. On Sunday we learned that Bill was in the hospital with a collapsed lung that was also blistered, and would have to remain there for several days. Visiting him on Monday, we found him much improved but still destined to remain in the hospital for observation.

(At 8:45 PM Jane was nervous as usual. She began dictating in a quiet voice, pacing rather slowly. Her eyes darkened as usual. The day had been cloudy and quite cold and windy.)

As far as my mention of May 23rd in connection with Miss Callahan, this was not a distortion; and the crisis, which was a psychio-physical crisis, came as I said that it would.

The Miss Callahan mentioned in connection with the 23rd was the first mentioned of that date, as Ruburt somewhat belatedly realized today. The restlessness which was apparent in Miss Callahan’s behavior when Ruburt saw her, was but a small tangible evidence of the inner crisis. The crisis itself was a psychic one mainly, which will of course have physical consequences. Miss Callahan was forced to realize that even her home surroundings were no longer familiar, nor is she easy within their confines.

It was a moment of momentary (underlined) terror, as the ego realized that what it fought against and what it would continue, though ineffectually, to fight against, was indeed no enemy to it but a most familiar omnipresent inner self, against which it was now powerless. The ego returned but this was the first instant where it actually came face to face with its counterpart in essence and in fact.

The moments will reoccur, as Ruburt noticed Miss Callahan doodled upon a pad without any conscious knowledge of so doing, and without knowledge of what was written. The body becomes dependent upon old habitual patterns that will carry on yet for a while. That evening further blocks of actual brain cells were destroyed. The cooperation therefore begins to halt.

The second mention of the 23rd date was not a distortion. I tried to tie it in by mentioning that the date had already been given in connection with Miss Callahan. There was no distortion here again. What came through was correct, but my charming Ruburt merely blocked the rest.

This is not nearly as troublesome basically as a distortion, though at times such blocking may leave you up in the air. The date did indeed refer to our young friend, who was taken ill that very evening. It would have done no good had the full data come through. If you had known what was to have happened, you could not have prevented it in any case.

The play is the thing, and so it was. The play in which your friend performed represented the springboard for the inner portrayal, unfortunately, of sacrifice. The caution that was given did come through, but of course you apparently thought that this applied to Miss Callahan. It implied instead caution against the possibility of conflict with your friend’s mother, and this could easily have occurred, to no good result in the long run.

(Break at 9:29. Jane was pretty well dissociated for a first delivery. Earlier today, rereading the 54th session, page 90, she had made the intuitive connection that Seth’s referral to the day May 23 twice did indeed refer to two separate events. At her suggestion I also reread the material; while agreeing that such an interpretation was possible, on my own I made no such connection, and thought that drawing such conclusions from the written word was stretching things a bit. I did believe that there was an explanation possible other than distortion however.

(Break at 10:01. Jane was dissociated as usual. Her delivery of the above material had been very slow and deliberate. My hand so far felt no fatigue from writing. Jane resumed dictating in the same quiet manner at 10:09.)

The Indian rain dances worked. Perhaps now you can understand the reason. Incidentally, if I may make a side note in response to a question you voiced, Joseph, during break: Loren was three times a man.

The misunderstanding seemed to amount to a distortion, but was not to this effect. Oftentimes when a person is reincarnated continually as one sex, the overall impression of the personality seems to be of the opposite sex. Ruburt picked up the feeling of femaleness very strongly here.

(Break at 10:50. Jane was dissociated as usual. Again, Seth had run well past break time on the half-hour. My hand felt a little fatigue but nothing like it used to. Jane resumed dictating in the same quiet manner at 11:00.)

(End at 11:15. Jane was dissociated as usual. Neither of us had displayed any hand phenomena during the session. It had been very peaceful.)