“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Saturday was May 23. All was quiet as far as Miss Callahan’s apartment was concerned. Jane and I did not see her, but on occasion we heard her voice through the door to her apartment as we used the hall. She had visitors on several occasions. Jane had visited her a couple of times through the week, and Miss Callahan now recognized her when she saw her. But it was obvious her memory was faulty.

(Returning home from a drive on Sunday, we were surprised to see Miss Callahan and her companion sitting on the front porch; this was something we had never seen her do in the four years we have lived here; Jane said that Miss Callahan appeared to be very restless, and that the last time she had visited her Miss Callahan had doodled and written constantly on a pad without seeming to be aware that she was doing so.

(Also on Saturday evening Jane and I attended a set of Japanese Noh plays at Elmira College, at the invitation of Bill Macdonnel, who had a part in one of them. Bill has been a witness several times. After the play, at a party for the cast and friends, Bill was seized by severe chest and back pain; he left for home with his parents.

(It will be noted that this day, May 23, marks the time when Jane had the vision of sickly hands, at a very late hour after we had returned home. On Sunday we learned that Bill was in the hospital with a collapsed lung that was also blistered, and would have to remain there for several days. Visiting him on Monday, we found him much improved but still destined to remain in the hospital for observation.

I find both of you are rather weary this evening. But then you cannot be at your best all the time.

You could be at your best all the time if you followed certain rather sane rules which I hope to go into later for your benefit.

A dispersion has begun in which the ego will find it more and more difficult to hold energy within forms of personal identity, or to use energy for the purposes of the ego. The energy will fly every which way, uncontrolled, and no longer channeled. Habit will still have some power of restraint for a while yet, but whole blocks of conceptual realizations, and whole blocks of time realizations, are now surely drifting away from the ego’s control.

This is not nearly as troublesome basically as a distortion, though at times such blocking may leave you up in the air. The date did indeed refer to our young friend, who was taken ill that very evening. It would have done no good had the full data come through. If you had known what was to have happened, you could not have prevented it in any case.

It is really necessary that the young man get a dwelling place away from his family, and in one respect, the attack involving the lungs represented an attempt to put off responsibility. As such for a time it serves a good purpose. Other responsibilities in his profession were being put upon him, and this plus his intent to find his own apartment all weighed upon him, until he had to get out from under.

We will study these effects in a most detailed fashion at a later time because of their importance. This may sound unbelievable to you; nevertheless the same effects that cause emotional outbursts also cause physical storms. The basis is the same. The manifestation is different. The particles of air being themselves composed of molecular structures having, as all molecules do, a generalized subconsciousness, and in condensed form a comprehension of the inner laws of the universe, are also then psychic as well as physical structures, as you should by now understand.

In many cases people know truths that they do not realize with the intellect. From time immemorial they have felt emotionally recharged from a storm, and this is of course exactly what happens. The process involved is a constant, necessary and beneficial give and take that results in at least some kind of balance.

The emotional energy taken from individuals by nonidentity molecular structures is of course returned in a recharged and fresh fashion. Identity-forms or personalities simply cannot handle great surpluses of energy at this time. Therefore the process mentioned indeed acts as an important safety valve. This cannot be stressed too much.

Weather goes in cycles, not because cycles are inherent in weather patterns, but because emotional cycles are inherent in individuals, and this also will be explained in time.

The Indian rain dances worked. Perhaps now you can understand the reason. Incidentally, if I may make a side note in response to a question you voiced, Joseph, during break: Loren was three times a man.

(Talking about distortions during last break, I had been reminded that many sessions ago Jane-Seth had stated first that [my brother] Loren had been three times a woman, then three times a man in a following session. I had never asked Seth to clear up the contradiction.)

(Break at 10:50. Jane was dissociated as usual. Again, Seth had run well past break time on the half-hour. My hand felt a little fatigue but nothing like it used to. Jane resumed dictating in the same quiet manner at 11:00.)

This is his only hope of peace of mind and emotional stability. It would be advantageous for him, just when he begins the practice of psychological time, to suggest to himself that the work of the day is of primary importance. Certain arbitrary dates can be selected, any dates, for necessary letters to editors; and these letters should be written as automatically as possible.

You will both benefit by your vacation later this year, though this time Ruburt will need it more than you will. Your painting, Joseph, is beginning to show the results of greater psychic understanding, which will transpose itself into content and technique. I am going to close the session earlier, mainly because I have these sessions roughly outlined, and I have given you the material that I intended.

A short morning walk would also benefit Ruburt; even though he would resent the loss of time he would more than make up for it.

Ruburt almost saw your sick friend’s clasped hands, during psychological time just before falling asleep the other evening. By all means keep up these experiments, and one night we shall set a session aside to explain them.